A little bird's chirp..
I still care for you, just not in the way I used to anymore.
I want to, I just don’t know how to.
Wished we would grow the fuck up and just be blatantly honest about our feelings.
I guess I still do have feelings for you, I want you to be happy.
I thought about the times when we were happy together, and it hurts.
It aches, because I don’t know if it’s even possible to go back to being happy that way.
I don’t want to be taken for granted again.
I don’t deserve that.
If you can’t treat me like how I think I deserve to, don’t show me any concern. Stop caring for me.
I don’t want to hold any more hope for us. If you’re not willing to show me you want to try, no. It’s enough.
You’re just a friend now.
I’ve had enough of you constantly saying things but never ever putting it into actions. Words are cheap. I can tell you I want to walk the world with you but your actions can mean something else.
Grow up.
Enough.
I am not burying myself with endless commitments, because I am happy that way. I am learning something new along the way, something I’ve never done before. Even if I do not get enough rest, it’s my choice. And I won’t complain about it. When I had you, I complained. A hell lot. Now that I’m alone in this, I learnt how to “suck it up”, something you constantly told me.
So enough.
This resonates so deeply.. :'(